I can't stop thinking about you. About us. 

It's been long enough that I can think of you

It's been long enough that I can speak to you

But I don't really think that you'd want to anymore

Yeah, I could've done much better for you

But you could've done much better for me I'm sure

We tried our best, but it wasn't enough

And we tried so hard that we fucked it up

My savior loves,

My savior lives. 

My God is always there for me.

This...is my love song to you

Tell everybody that I'm yours.

Will you still love me when...

It's been a long time, too long. 

My life has changed...drastically. 

I'm happy, I don't know if I'm genuinely happy. 

I love someone, I'm not in love though. 

Why is that easier to admit to strangers than my friends? 

I'm happy though...I'm sort of excited to see what happens next. Maybe that's nervousness and not excitement. 

I don't know. 

Hungry for love, chasing things that I could give up.

Show me that you're willing to fight,

that I'm still the love of your life. 

I'll give you the rest of my life. 

Father, lead me...because I can't do this alone. 

I forget about you long enough, to forget why I needed to.

My heart feels so extremely heavy today. I've exhausted all of my sources of venting about this issue. I never really talk to my friends and say bad things about Anthony, but I do let them hear more of the bad stories than they do hear good. I don't think anyone truly dislikes Anthony for anything but the way that he has treated me recently. 

I remember how happy I was when Anthony told me he was being stationed closer to me, it was like an overwhelming amount of joy because that meant I could see him more often...I never thought we would fight more often. 

I can't remember a time than I was more happy than on my birthday...

I still can't do this.